For Maxxie

[reformingfury]

The nights are getting harder for Dave. Most of his fears showed up in broad daylight before October came around, but the nightmares are picking up until he's lucky to manage two hours of undisturbed sleep before he's chased out of his dreams. He sleeps better with another person in his bed, but Dave is afraid that its going to be too much for Maxxie when they haven't event been dating for two months still.

This time, when the Thurston hockey team actually chased him into some woods where there were looped belts hanging from each sturdy branch available, he peaked into his boyfriend's room for the first time since he started sneaking in to try to finish a night's sleep, rather than just climbing in and seeking comfort. Unsurprisingly, Maxxie seems to be sleeping steadily. Dave sighs as he pushes the curtain back closed. Maybe he can find some herbal tea in the kitchens. Or something in the infirmary he can use to knock himself out with, otherwise.

Maxxie has been amazing these past weeks, with how he's been as patient as possible with Dave's sleep issues and the stress causing then. He deserves a night of undisturbed sleep for a change.

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[reformingfury]

"I don't think anyone can do that for me. I just... either I stop being scared of this shit in a couple of weeks or I just face it."

He rolls them on to their sides, the urgency waning with the seriousness of their conversation. Holding Maxxie close to him again, Dave kisses his boyfriend slowly, trying to soothe him as much as he's done for him this month.

"You've done everything you can. I just want you to be safe and hope I can get back to you after it."

[just_dance_it]

So much easier said than done. Maxxie has never had reason to listen to the jeers and insults of most people, but he knows how loud and painful they are. He thinks a lot of Dave, but he knows that the possibility of him overcoming his fears in a small span of time is pretty fucking unlikely.

He lets himself be kissed and held, and it's nice, but it doesn't have the effect Dave wants. Maxxie worries more, if only now in a way that makes his heart ache rather than showing on his face.

"I'll be safe," Maxxie promises. He feels like it's empty words; no one is going to be completely safe come Halloween. But he doesn't want Dave to worry more. "And you will come back to me. You just will."

[reformingfury]

It's absolutely not something he can guarantee, but it's as if something in Dave's heart reaches out to make him nod.

He cups Maxxie face in his hands again, kissing him with something far more than comfort or need that he can't quite name yet. Something he's a little scared to name with the uncertainty heading their way.

""I'll come back. As long as I'm on the island, I'll fight so damn hard to come back to you."

[just_dance_it]

The words hit him square in the gut, in the best way, in the warming way that eats away at that cold uncertainty. The thing about the island is that people are taken away all the time, and nothing you can do can stop it. But this is something-- Wanting to come back may just make a difference this time.

It's too much to respond to in kind, though. Maxxie's not that articulate and it's a lot to take in while just laying there in his arms.

"You should try to get some sleep," he murmurs weakly, though his look is warm and the kiss he follows up with is slow and sweet.

[reformingfury]

Dave smiles back, his own face soft and sleepy again, now that that he's feeling more relaxed than anything.

"Sounds like a plan." He settles in more comfortably, relaxing the tight hold on Maxxie into a snuggle. He hopes for more pleasant dreams in his boyfriend's arms. It's not always the case, but at least waking up with Maxxie always makes it a little better for Dave.